So this is after my birthday, but on NOv 6 i finally turned 21.  On my birthday, my bf came for the weekend but on the day of...my friends took me out to dinna..and my girl jinny was like..geez lauren it took you a while to get here...as i am one of the youngest to turn 21...props to my younger girl Bobbie who has still yet to turn 21, but she has a fake so in reality she has been partying like she was 21 since we got back from school...all good to the hood...

Forreal, 21 is anticlimatic...doncha think...i remember in high school, i was like i can't wait til i turn 18 so i can go clubbing in over 18 clubs not some bad young age clubs...then when I turned 18, i wanted to be 21, i was like these young no alcohol clubs stink...im over it...and i wanted to drink alllll the time...haha, well now i can and i really don't...its nice to be able to order a martini or a glass of wine when i go out now...but do you know what this really means...it means im getting old...my childhood is really over...nothing to keep me from getting full sentences in jail..nothing but selfsufficency on the way, my parents, i won't need them soon..how scary is that...forreal...im scared....i think because there are too many options for me right know...what directions to go into, what career path do i want to take...what state do i want to live in for a while, what to do about nothing....geez....i wish i was young again...to know there is so much ahead of me...so many steps to take..now what..what steps do i take after graduation...i can take too many and what if its not the right one...okay im making myself crazy..ne ways i doubt ne one reads this piece of crap...okay just wanted to say..acutally nothing okay ....